Ego, Mother Earth, Darkness etc. (August - September 2011)
Hi Pearl
First off, I wanted to let you know about my feelings regarding the earthquake and tsunami that (thankfully) never occurred. I read on your website that there were many people who were upset or confused over the whole incident. I'm sure, like me, most people are happy that so much destruction and loss of life on such a grand scale didn't occur, and the ones who were upset perhaps felt duped or felt they ended up making fools of themselves.
For my part, I decided to hold off on reacting right away, and to give myself some time to take it all in. I honestly wasn't sure what to think about it all. I feel today, that, on a deeper level, I understand what the Divine was trying to tell us, and why they felt such an imminent and alarming wake up call might have been needed. I believe in their message, that humanity as a whole must wake up, we have a huge leap in consciousness that is imperative for us to discover and take part in if we as a species and this earth is to survive. the time is now, and we must go on to the next stage of evolution if we are to make it. I really do get that, although, I must admit, I didn't think that such drastic measures were going to be taken this soon.
I wanted to let you know that I truly, in my heart, never doubted you or Aldeene's intentions. I feel this whole incident has made my own purpose in this life even clearer, and I feel I have been making strides in my own growth and spiritual development and awakening. I feel I can no longer bury my head in the sand regarding these matters of truth and consciousness, which is something I know I've been foolishly guilty of, for far too long.
I did heed your message regarding this disaster, getting the warning out to family and others as instructed. For what it's worth, I wanted to let you know that even knowing what I know now, if I had to do it all over again, I would.
Even though I've definitely made gains over where I was about six months ago, I still struggle with doubt, insecurity, regret, and other negative and self-destructive feelings from time-to-time. However, bit by bit, I really do feel like everything is going to be ok.
I couldn't come in person to the mass healing on June 26th, but I did try to feel it at home, and I did feel a true connection with, I believe, the Divine, and I felt the healing, and it was a really wonderful and eye-opening experience, and I will do all I can to make it to this coming healing.
I couldn't make it to the satsangs for the month of July, due to some upheaval in my personal life (I moved and had a scheduling conflict with the weekly satsangs), but I hope to resume going, most likely bi-monthly. I was worried that you might have thought I had lost the faith and so I wasn't going to bother with all this anymore, and for what it's worth, I want you to know that that isn't the case at all. I know the truth of what I feel in satsang, and I know that you (and Aldeene) have a very special gift and anyone lucky enough to experience that shouldn't take that for granted.
I wanted to share one more thing that had me a little confused. I don't know why, but I think this might have something to do with the healings. Around early July, I had noticed that my face appeared different. At first I barely noticed, but I started to get more looks from others around me, and others had commented on it as well. Then I noticed I looked different in a better way. I don't know how to explain it, but my face looked fuller, more relaxed, and yes, dare I say it, softer and prettier, than what I normally saw when I looked in the mirror every day. I know one might think I imagined it all, but I really did not, and even have some pictures to prove it, where you can see the (subtle) but obvious differences. This sudden( and admittedly welcome) change in my facial appearance lasted for about a week and a half, and just as suddenly as it came, it went. It was like that sparkle just dimmed, and I can't seem to explain it.
One interesting thing, however, was that, in my prayers, praying to my Inner Beingness as you suggested I do, among many other things, I prayed for my face to be healed. You see, I always believed that my face was lopsided in a way, and nothing I did would take that belief away. I feel my efforts over the years to "correct" it only made things worse. So I don't know, but I can't shake this feeling that all this innner work, and the prayer(s) to "heal my face" in addition to all the other prayers I was doing, is what brought this sudden change in my face. I know you said that anything I ask for from my Inner Beingness would be granted to me, that she has a plan and would provide everything I need. For that week and a half that my face had "healed" I really felt like "Yes- anything really is truly possible" and I felt like it was a message from the Divine, telling me to keep on the path I was going, almost encouraging me to keep doing the inner work I was doing. I felt and still feel that the outer surface change was reflective of the inner change I had been experiencing, like outside reflecting inside. Needless to say, and not just for vanity reasons (although that accounts for some of it, to be perfectly honest) , I felt and still pretty much feel kind of deflated over why that change came and then suddenly went. Also, I wonder what accounts for the sudden reversal of that change.
I'm aware that this might seem like a shallow and trivial and even silly matter, and I'm really not someone "obsessed" with looks, but it has nonetheless fascinated and frustrated me. I don't know that you'll have an answer for this, but I was wondering if this is even possible- have you heard or seen things like this happen before? Am I wrong to have appreciated "looking better" in the face, and is it vain and wrong that I feel a bit bewildered and sad over having lost it? Should I just appreciate it for what it was and let it go? Do you think there is anything I could be doing or should be doing to get it back? Did I do something wrong to make it "go away"? I know there are more important things to focus on, and trust me, this hasn't totally consumed me or anything, it's just something that has really confounded me, and left me feeling a little guilty for some reason- I had a strong feeling it's connected to all of this inner work I've been doing since I met you, and I had a strong feeling I should consult your opinion before coming to any conclusions myself, but I am also kind of feeling a bit of a nagging doubt, like it isn't something that should be spoken aloud, I don't know why.
I did feel more of a connection to my Inner Beingness during this time period, but that could also have been because of the talking I was doing with my Inner Beingness. I think the change might have gone away once I didn't talk to my Inner Beingness so much, perhaps I just took it for granted, and thought that it would be permanent. I just don't know, but I was wondering if you had any possible idea what that might have been all about.
Finally, I just wanted to conclude with letting you know that I believe in the work you and Aldeene do, and I am blessed to have come into contact with the both of you. The quality of my prayers and my connection to my true self has increased exponentially, as has the quality of my life and, may I add, my family's life.
Thank-you from the bottom of my heart
Joyelle: We ask her not to ponder this change of face – let this experience be just that. We ask her to connect to her Inner Beingness and enjoy the changes. Regarding her perception that she has reverted back: Joyelle: She thinks it has shifted back. Tell her to look with new eyes.
Joyelle: When a spiritual experience reveals itself to you, do not attach to it or the experience will fade – must be egoless for the experience to remain.
Regarding her connection with her Inner Beingness: Joyelle: when one truly connects with their Inner Beingness, then magic can happen. Regarding our wake-up call: Joyelle: It is very, very True. Humans must wake up to the Divinity within.
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What took place during the mass healing? (August 13, 2011)
Joyelle: The people who took part in the mass healing were connected to Earth Energy and also had Darkness removed.
We asked about the importance of Mother Earth?
Joyelle: You need Mother Earth’s energy to help you. She was connecting you to her.
Firstly, her energy can come through you to help to protect her. Secondly, your energy can give her hope.
Mother Earth needs protection. She is being attacked from the ground. She is being prevented from sending her life-giving energy to the living things, people, plants, and animals. She is being suffocated.
By connecting, she can come through the people, and also the energy they give, gives her hope, hope that she can survive.
So the Inner Beingness of Mother Earth was happy to connect to us?
Joyelle: Yes, very, very, very much so. It knows that there is hope.
What is the relationship between Mother Earth and the Divine?
Joyelle: The Divine created Mother Earth. He took the planet and created life forms.
Where does Mother Earth’s energy come from?
Joyelle: It comes from the Divine, goes to Mother Earth and Father Sky and returns to the Divine. If one stands on Mother Earth and asks to be connected and sends love to Mother Earth, the person will be part of this loop.
So Darkness knows that Mother Earth’s energy is critical to life forms? How do we enhance our relationship with Mother Earth?
Joyelle: We ask the people to send love to Mother Earth. How? Walk upon her and tell her that you love her, and she will feel and hear this love. This love that you send her will give her hope that she will not be destroyed.
We want to tell you to tell the people, and this will start a ripple.
How does connecting in this way help to protect Mother Earth?
Joyelle: Look at the new growth that comes out of Mother Earth – this new growth will have the strength to repel Darkness. This energy exchange will create this new growth. As you connect with Mother Earth, this new growth will occur.
How should we view Mother Earth in a way that stops hurting her?
Joyelle: Regard Mother Earth as an extinguishable planet.
So wherever we go, even if we’re inside, we can connect to her?
Joyelle: It’s where you touch the Earth. It is best to be in touch with the ground. What about standing on pavement or concrete? Pavement and concrete are man-made, so it is much more difficult to send her energy through this.
So Darkness has a role in the destruction of Mother Earth?
Joyelle: Darkness has a role in the destruction of Mother Earth. It not only influences people, but also blocks Mother Earth’s energy. Her energy gives humans more than energy to do things with – it is a life force.
What happened when we put our hands together at the cabin?
Joyelle: It was like calling Mother Earth, inviting her to connect with us and all those who participated in the Divine Plan.
Is Mother Earth’s energy the same as that which makes a tree grow?
Joyelle: Yes
We made it easy for Darkness to overlay Mother Earth because we didn’t care?
Joyelle: The humans made it very easy for Darkness to overlay Mother Earth by not loving her.
Mother Earth’s energy has the capacity to repel Darkness?
Joyelle: Darkness doesn’t like Mother Earth’s energy, not at all. The new channel between Mother Earth and the people will be very powerful.
So Mother Earth wanted to help, wanted to give herself, but we didn’t cooperate?
Joyelle: Yes. The humans have cut themselves off from Mother Earth. They do not recognize that Mother Earth supports them, not the cities in which they live.
What is Father Sky?
Joyelle: Father Sky is Mother Earth’s mate. The two energetically form a life-giving energy to the Earth.
Why did we need to be connected?
Joyelle: Because this way you form a channel between Mother Earth and Father Sky that bypasses Darkness.
The channels created are to give Mother Earth hope and Father Sky strength.
When we walk on Mother Earth and send love to Her, will our love go to both?
Joyelle: Your love will go to Mother Earth first, then to Father Sky. Should we also think of Father Sky? Think of Father Sky as you love Mother Earth. This will give you the best connection and the energy will be free-flowing.
Father Sky is not the Divine. It is where Nature is most vital. It is when Nature protects and nourishes Mother Earth, like with wind, water, clouds, the atmosphere.
So sending Mother Earth love is more important that protesting environmental degradation?
Joyelle: Sending Mother Earth love is much more important, and she will respond to this love in an appropriate manner. Meaning? She will expel some of the things that are hurting her.
Would Darkness have been able to install itself on the Earth if the humans had remained open to Mother Earth?
Joyelle: No
When one looks at the sky, what should we do?
Joyelle: When you look at the sky, ask for his energy to come to you. This will make the whole cycle complete.
What about those who were not part of the Divine Plan? Can they still send love to Mother Earth?
Joyelle: If they want to be connected, we ask them to go outside, stand on Mother Earth, and ask for the connection from Her to Father Sky. We will do this for them. They ask for the connection from the Divine or from Mother Earth.
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Follow-up question that relates to how Darkness comes to influence ego and why ego must be transmuted. All replies by the Divine Angel Joyelle. (August 7, 2011)
How best to dissolve emotional reactions, as well as the egoic thoughts that want and desire? Is it sufficient to question everything that comes up? Am I failing to transmute ego when I meditate, because I don’t question deep enough? Is this why some things keep coming up time and time again. And then, how do I question something to its very core? And how best to ask for help, when I feel helpless? Thank you so much,
Joyelle: We ask you to give us your emotional reactions. One must recognize the emotional reaction, have remorse, and give it to us with gratitude.
We asked what remorse is –
Joyelle: Remorse is the complete act of feeling the depth of pain caused to others and pain inflicted on self by emotional reactions.
We asked what the complete act is –
Joyelle: It is when you feel the pain that they have felt and you have caused yourself.
If one does not complete this process, then first of all, we cannot remove the emotional reaction from the body. Secondly, the Karma that has accrued cannot be transmuted.
We asked Joyelle to comment on the aspect of questioning…
Joyelle: The questioner is trying to cognitively get rid of ego – cannot do this. The only way to have ego transmuted is to feel it – feel the pain, sorrow, confusion that you have caused in people and yourself.
We asked Joyelle what one should do when one feels helpless…
Joyelle: We recommend that they give Us this helplessness.
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Now that I am on my spiritual path, how do I move forward?
Joyelle: When one steps onto their spiritual path, the Ego is constantly being exposed. When one recognizes the ego being rooted out, one surrenders to this process. One may find despair in the process, but stay in surrender.
One stays in surrender by believing in the Divine and keeping faith and letting their Inner Beingness be the leader.
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